Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Pernahkah kita lalui satu situasi di mana perasaan kita berbelah bagi...


Kadang2 dalam kehidupan, kita merasakan kita sudah buat yang terbaik. Kita berusaha bersungguh2 untuk memudahkan segala urusan. Kita merasakan kita mahukan kesederhanaan dalam setiap langkah perencanaan diri kita. Namun kita sering tewas dengan pandangan negatif terutama dari mereka yang kita sayang. Agak mustahil untuk semua orang memahami cara kita yang amat mementingkan kebahagiaan orang lain dan diri kita yang akan berterusan cuba memahami dan memenangi orang yang kita sayangi.


I thought I have done the best yet the best is not good enough. If my sacrifice is not good enough for you, maybe we were never meant to be together. There so many misconceptions in life which bring me to sadness and tears. How I wish I could see and feel it from a different view. I might be stupid in trying to solve things alone, on my own but this is what I am. I believe in my internal strength and I want to help and assist everybody in my own way. I never meant to burden you, neither do I have any intention to make you feel uneasy with my way of life. Nevertheless, I am a person of my own identity. 

Sekiranya kasih sayang yang sedang dibina ini membebankan dirimu, maafkan diri ini. I have never meant to hurt you. You would be the last person for me to hurt. Wish Allah gives me the patience to hold on with our love and our destiny. I don't want to run away from my promises to him, yet my heart silently whispering the end of everything. These could be the voices of syaitan who definitely does not want us to build a life togteher as husband and wife. I will fight all evil words because I know, as a mediocre, I will never ask for much in life. He is much better than me in so many ways. He is too kind for me..too sweet and too patient with my behavior. I am so grateful to have met a kind man with a great heart like him. Do I really deserve him? Do I, as a nobody in this world deserve this happiness with him? I love my baby..I really do...



My new bed..




MY NEW BED WHICH COSTS ME......THIS IS THE PRESENT BED SHEET I AM USING...THE NEW BED SHEET FOR THE WEDDING IS STILL AT ALAMODA....BEST KATIL BARU NI...

Monday, February 9, 2009

My lovely Mama...and my macho bro..Hadi...




My youngest bro with me...Mama is so happy...21st Mac 2009..langsir baru, ada small pelamin, 2 karpet baru, semua org baju baru, caterer dah selesai, katil pengantin, hias bilik pengantin, Ma akan tolong mama di dapur for a week, Pc Gigi dan Mc Imah akan dtg..she is happy...I am responsible to make mama and abah happy...Abah...mmm a very different case...doa2 abah murah rezeki agar pagar siap....

Abg Man and Haslinda..




May Allah be with us..May Allah give us strength to fight syaitan..Semoga Allah memberikan kami kekuatan untuk menerima kelemahan masing-masing...Berikanlah kami peluang untuk menjadi suami isteri yang taat kepada perintahMu dan saling membantu bagi melengkapi perhubungan yang direstui ini....He complements me in so many ways...with his small way of guiding me...

A sweet short break..Risik ceremony on 1st Feb 2009




I think almost all frens were suprised when I told them my akad nikah majlis is on 21st Mac 2009. What can I say..jodoh sudah sampai...Risik ceremony was done in a breeze..breakfast...then sarung cincin...A Blessing in disguise...Abg Man's grandmother came (Wan), sarung cincin and that's it...mcm tak percaya...I was wearing baju bertunang yg lama..sederhana dan gelak2..But Wan cried masa dia sarungkan cincin, dia sgt berharap we will be together forever..and Abg Man cried too...so sad masa tu..Mama mmglah nangis..I am hoping that all friends and family members will pray for us..Hidup ini tidak bermakna tanpa doa semua yang menyayangi kita. Ya Allah..lembutkanlah hati Abg Man agar dia menjadi suami yang sabar dan bertanggungjawab..berilah kami berdua keberkatan..murahkanlah rezeki kami, panjangkanlah umur kami, permudahkan jodoh kami berdua, kurniakanlah anak-anak yang beriman kepada kami berdua...