Thursday, October 9, 2008

Happy Birthday Haslinda

I am 38 years old today..Last night I went to UMP, had an activity to attend, RAKSI briefing on the motivational program. Then I had dinner with Ira and gave her some of my belongings. She seems ok despite of her misfortune in losing her bag and lap top. May Allah be with you, Ira. Doa and pray for the willpower to strengthen our heart.





Then sms from him keep coming in. But his sms broke my heart. Must I receive all those sms now? I was down with words which really saddened me...His words which keep reminding himself of how useless and hopeless he is..And he has suffered..is suffering and do not want me to suffer with him...Are we Allah, bang? Are we the ones who decide on our destiny? Allah told us to change our life for the betterment. I am here to help you..to be with you..and you push me away..on my birthday...I don't think he is coming tomorrow. The idea was to spend dinner together. With his words and this situation, nobody has the heart to be together. I am out of words to console him. Our inner strength comes from within. Nobody has the right to tell us whether we should be happy or lousy because we control our emotions. Allah has given us wonderful moments and opportunities. It is a blessing to love and to be loved. Why put ourself so low, Abg? Sad yet I understand his moment of loneliness. I'll let him have his peace. I am not afraid of losing. This goes back on whether we were meant to be with each other in the first place.



Today my 3rd day of fasting. UHL students are organizing Iftar this evening together with me. Regardless of Abg's situation, regardless of how hurt I was with his words, life goes on. I deserve to be happy and abg, if I cannot gain happiness with you, I'll try to get it from my students. I received sms from Khairul, as usual, a loyal friend since university who has never forgotten my birthday. Received sms from bunga2 di UMP..tq girls hehehe



To friends out there...say kind words to people you love.. Everybody deserves to be happy .. everybody.. that includes u, abg...

Allah swt is fair to all..let's not spoil our mind and our heart..I, personally am happy with my life in UMP..I'll be on leave tomorrow..promise mama to go to the bank and hospital with her..I go back to those I love..sincerely...what we have will be the best..my 38th birthday is so blissful with love and care..Tq YA ALLAH...YA RAHMAN..Ya RAHIM...

My wish? To start my PHD soon, to lose more weight, to apply senior lecturer, to be a better principal, to fall in love and get married...with who? mmmm there must be an ugly frog for me outside there, I'll kiss the frog and here I will be with my Prince Charming... :-) yeah right!!!!

p/s
He just called. He wanted to come today to mend things. I told him the plan is for him to come tomorrow. I am ok..nothing has changed. He said ok..he will be in Kuantan tomorrow. He still have dozens of work to do today and he wants to finish a lot of paperwork before he can come tomorrow. We'll see how it goes tomorrow. I just want to make people around me happy...

5 comments:

zue said...

Dear K. Has,

Happy Birthday.. semoga sentiasa dirahmat Allah dan dikurniakan ketenangan hati dan kekuatan untuk mengharungi segala dugaan hidup..amin

Has_Hashim said...

Tq my sister Zue..tq...syukurnya dgn nikmat Allah swt..Semoga Allah menjaga Zue sekeluarga..amin....

NaNa said...

cik has dearie....

hepi besday..!.semoga panjang umur....murah rezeki dan dirahmati ALLAH S.W.T...n selamat dunia dan akhirat...

"berkuranglah lagi masa dan peluang untuk hidup di dunia ini dgn bertambahnya umur. Kurang lagi peluang untuk beribadah dan berkhidmat kepada agama Allah "

Fahidayati Ramli said...

K.Has... hepi beday... moga pjg umur & murah rezeki... semoga bahagia sentiasa....

Anonymous said...

happy birthday, has